72. Signs to look for & what it feels like to go through a life upgrade / Shakti rising / spiritual awakening / energetic expansion journey / quantum leap / identity shift etc.
Signs to look for & what it feels like to go through a life upgrade
aka Shakti rising / spiritual awakening / energetic expansion journey / quantum leap / identity shift etc.
If you’ve been feeling like something is shifting in your life this episode is for you. I’m talking about what it can actually feel like to move through a big life upgrade, spiritual awakening, Shakti rising, energetic expansion, quantum leap, identity shift… whatever language resonates with you. Because these seasons of growth don’t always look like the shiny, magical transformation we imagine they will. Sometimes they’re confusing, uncomfortable, exhausting, incredibly clarifying, or somehow all of those things at once. In this episode, I’m sharing what this journey has looked like for me, some of the signs I’ve noticed along the way, and what I’m learning about letting your life evolve as you come into deeper alignment with yourself and your life purpose.
In this episode, we’re talking about:
Signs you might be moving through a spiritual awakening, energetic upgrade, or identity shift
What a Shakti rising, energetic expansion, or quantum leap can actually feel like in real life
Why major periods of personal and spiritual growth aren’t always linear
The unexpected ways your old life can start feeling less aligned as you change
What happens when you’re getting closer to your life purpose but don’t have the whole picture yet
Why clarity can keep evolving as you move through different layers of your transformation
Some of the myths about what a big life upgrade or spiritual awakening is supposed to look and feel like
What I’m personally noticing as I move through another season of growth, change, and deeper alignment
TRANSCRIPT
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If you're going through shifts in your life and you're wondering if it's a big life upgrade, this episode is for you.
Or if you've ever wondered what it feels like to go through a big life upgrade spiritually, energetically, and physically, this is the episode for you.
We're going to talk about what it feels like, what science to look for, and some myths about this era of your spiritual growth and alignment with your life purpose.
0:23
So grab a drink, get comfy and we'll get into it.
You have a dream in your heart that wants to come out.
Maybe you know what that dream is and well meaning people in your life have told you it's unrealistic.
Maybe you feel like you're too old, too young, too inexperienced, not confident enough, or any number of untrue beliefs that are trying to keep you safe.
0:46
Or maybe you don't know what your life purpose is and you want clarity on how to find it.
Maybe you feel lost and floating around in your life and like something is missing.
This show challenges what you think you should be doing with your life and helps you see how it's possible to go after your dreams instead.
1:08
If you want to be inspired, empowered, and feel ready to go after that dream, this is the place for you.
More than a show, this is a movement.
I'm Carolina.
Welcome to the No Thanks Unsubscribe podcast.
1:32
Hello, hello, hello.
Welcome to today's episode.
How are we doing on this fine day?
Whatever day you happen to be listening to this at some time in the future.
1:49
It's kind of trippy to think that you are listening to me from the past.
I am a blast from the past.
I'm in a little bit of a kooky mood today.
I keep going through different upgrades, which kind of sparked this episode clearly.
2:09
And the more I align with my intuition, the more clarity I get on what that looks like.
And the more clarity, like the more time that goes by, the more I can see in the past, like how this is all playing out, which is so awesome because then I can share it with you here today.
2:30
And I know it's something that I looked for when I remember I was reading Rebecca Campbell's books.
I read three of them.
Light is the new black.
I can't remember all the titles.
2:45
I read her first three anyway, and in one of them she talked about like spiritual awakening, life upgrade, whatever, like whatever you want to call it.
It all fits under that same kind of umbrella because physically, somatically, you're living some type of way.
3:04
And the more you get into alignment with your life purpose, the more you get into alignment with your intuition and your soul.
Everything that you think you know is shifting.
And I remember reading her book and thinking, I'm going through some of those things and then looking to her list of like, here are some of the things that you could be experiencing if you're going through one of these things too.
3:27
And I remember not having had all of those things.
And then of course, getting in my head about, well, maybe I'm not going through an awakening, maybe I'm not going through an upgrade, blah, blah, blah.
OK, so today's episode is really going to talk to that because like if you think you're going through an upgrade, you are end of story, end point.
3:51
Episode is over.
Just kidding.
But like, it's gonna be different for everybody.
What's different for me is different for Rebecca Campbell is different for you, and that's OK.
That's your journey.
So what she shared is totally valid and what I'm about to share is totally valid and what you're experiencing is totally valid.
4:12
And so you could have any number of those things and more or less.
And if you have less, that doesn't make your experience any less than it just means maybe you didn't need as big of an upgrade as some other people did.
Maybe you weren't so disconnected as maybe I was or Rebecca Campbell was, you know, or maybe you have more things because maybe you were more disconnected.
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And that's totally fine.
It's it's that was your life path.
Your soul chose this path.
It's OK.
So that's the stuff we're going to talk about today.
Also, I have some really fun stories I would love to share about listening to my intuition, following my intuition, which is totally crucial to the whole journey of living your life purpose.
5:04
You can't follow your life purpose if you don't have a good relationship with your intuition.
End of point.
Like and like I will die on that hill because this was the struggle for me.
5:19
I was going through life living in my brain.
And so your brain picks stuff up filtered by other peoples beliefs.
The beliefs that you have are filtered.
They're adopted by other people.
Like a belief thief.
Don't be a belief thief.
5:35
Like what I've had to do in my journey is literally assess every single belief to see.
Like do I want to believe this thing?
Do I want to subscribe to this thing?
Do I want to unsubscribe to this thing?
That's where this whole show title came from because I'm no thanks unsubscribing from a lot of things in life because they, I found that they didn't align with me.
6:04
And and when I thought about it, at the end of the day, they feel kind of strange.
Like why are we following these things?
We follow them because we were raised that way.
We were told to adopt these things.
And so when you go through your life living in your brain, you're not connected to your intuition whatsoever, because all of that's in your brain is filtered by what people have told you in your life.
6:27
And you're trying to do what you think is right, and you're trying to do what you think you should, and you're not connected to your intuition.
And even then, now that I'm connected to my intuition, I still sometimes, depending on what the situation is, my autopilot response is through those filters.
6:46
It is not actually a true response.
And the more you can get connected to your intuition, the more you can discern, OK, what am I going to follow?
Like I gave my intuition a name Iduna which is the name of the mom in Frozen and she I'll notice depending on what it is like.
7:14
I know I still struggle with like my beliefs on money and I had a situation today where I needed to buy supplements because I take supplements for my health and I know that my brain functions like I'm less foggy when I take my supplements.
7:34
And I know that I feel better physically when I take the supplements because my body benefits from them.
But I needed four of my 5 supplements because they all emptied at the same time which is rare.
And I was like, I don't want to spend that money.
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And so my autopilot response was, I don't want to spend that money.
But then my intuition was like, I had to stop because I felt this restriction and I had to stop and I had to connect with my intuition.
8:06
I'm like a DLNA, like I say her name and then I can feel where she is.
And then I ask the question because from human design perspective, I have sacral authority.
And so I respond well with yes or no.
And so I, I say her name, I feel where she is.
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Sometimes I'm like, hi, Aduna.
And then like, you know, it's like this relationship the same way you would say hi to a friend or a family member or a colleague or who a stranger on the street, I don't know.
So I say hi to her and then I ask do we want to buy these?
And then I feel the true answer.
8:41
And so if you're living in your head, you're not always getting a true answer.
Depending on the situation, if you have a lot of trauma or fear around a certain thing, it's always going to be in your way.
It's always going to cloud you.
So I will die on this hill that, that you need to connect to your intuition, create a relationship with your intuition.
9:02
And if you struggle with that, Ah, I, I know how that is.
I was there my entire life.
I only started getting a relationship with myself and my intuition over the past three years since my out of body experience.
9:21
Oh yeah, three years ago, a couple weeks ago.
And more closely to that, it's only been about two years that I've really, really been into into this journey.
And I feel like I figured out a really great system on how to help people through it.
9:38
And so I'm going to be offering like intuitive mentoring to help you connect with your intuition.
And if you're into that and you need help with that, you need guidance in that area, head over to the link in the show notes.
And I'm going to offer 50% off of these until the end of August.
9:59
I guess September 1st is what I put in there.
And right now all that's set up on my website is for one-on-one sound healing.
But like if you apply for that, then you will definitely get virtual mentoring for your intuition.
10:15
You can just put a little note that that's what you want.
Eventually I'll get it all set up on the website.
But I'm really trying to do this thing where I'm not letting tech stuff stop me from offering things.
Because the more I get connected to my intuition, the more I go down this path of my life journey and my life purpose.
10:31
I find that there's a lot of these things that are getting in my way.
I'm holding myself back because it's like, Oh well, I don't have the website set up or oh, I don't have this.
You know what?
You can even e-mail me [email protected] and we can set you up with a session if you don't want to fill out the whole thing.
10:48
Like literally, I'm trying to do whatever I can to make everything the simplest I can for me, for you, for my business.
Like I, the more clear it gets, the easier everything feels.
And like, the harder everything feels, it's the more misalignment there is.
11:05
I truly believe that because I really, really feel that everything in life can be easy and amazing.
And that's partly because I put that in my meditation.
Every single morning I ask myself this question.
I wonder how easy and amazing today is going to be.
11:22
And everything is so easy and amazing always.
Which brings me to one of the fun stories I have to share with you today.
So my moisturizer was emptying.
OK.
11:38
This is such a fun story about following your intuition.
So my moisturizer was emptying and I always get it at Shoppers Drug Mart.
I live in Canada and it's The Honest Company Dehydration face cream.
I have dry skin, especially when I was living in Alberta it was really bad.
11:58
But it's really dry climate out there, it's better.
It's more humid now I'm back in Ontario so but still this face cream is a dream.
I love it so much.
OI always get it.
It's 40 bucks, 399940 bucks plus tax.
12:15
So I went to the store they didn't have it no problem.
I look on the website I can't find it.
I'm like what the hell?
So then I do some more digging and I find it on the website and I'm like oh OK fine.
That was a few weeks ago.
Then yesterday I I showered and I used what I had and I'm like, oh crap, I need I forgot.
12:34
It was like, Oh yeah, I have to go get a new one.
I don't have any in my back stock.
I have to go.
Also shout out to the home edit Like I freaking love having backstock because then I'm not running out to the store every time I need a new moisturizer.
You know, you've got a bunch of accustock while I was out of back stock.
12:51
So I was like, we need to go to the store, I need to get this.
So I refreshed the page because I leave the tabs.
I'm one of those people who has 35 tabs open on their phone.
Actually hold on, it's probably more in my Safari.
I currently have no yeah 35.
13:08
That's funny.
I currently have 35 tabs open in Safari O.
I keep tabs open to remind me to do things and then the tabs kind of just live there until I'm like, yeah, I don't need that thing anymore.
Anyway, so I have the tab open for the moisturizer because I found it on the website.
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I refreshed it and I saw it was half price $20.
I've never seen it for $20.
I've seen it on sale.
I've never seen it for $20.
And it said like clear out.
And I was like, Oh no, what does that mean?
So then we go to the store, we go to a different shoppers.
13:41
I live in a town where there's probably like 5 shoppers, so I went to a different one than the one that's close by my house because it said they had three.
And I go to the store and I can't find it anywhere.
And I was like, this is strange.
It says they have three.
Anyway, I talked to two different associates.
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One of them is like, we're not carrying it anymore at this location.
And I'm like, OK.
And then another one is like, I was like, I can't find these three.
And she's like, they're probably stolen.
And I'm like, ah, that sounds awful.
Anyway, we come home.
I look it up because it was after 10:00 PM.
14:12
So like some of the shoppers were closed.
Some of them were.
That one was still open.
Anyway, I do some more digging, find out The Honest Company is no longer going to be selling their products in Canada at all.
I didn't see that.
That apparently came out like last fall, that news, I don't know.
14:29
I didn't see it so I I got upset.
But then also part of a life ugrade thing.
I've been noticing a lot throughout my life upgrade journey that things fall away when you're upgrading because the way you used to live can't come with you into your life upgrade.
14:54
And so the way I used to live with this moisturizer, maybe like I didn't need this moisturizer until I was in Alberta and then I found it and it was great.
And now that I'm like I said, I'm back here and I maybe I don't need it that much anymore.
I don't know.
But it's what I'm using.
15:11
And I don't want to put the energy and the effort into finding a dupe or finding something similar, especially because I buy everything cruelty free because that really matters to me.
And yeah, so I was like, I don't, I don't want to deal with this anymore.
15:26
But also really cool to see little things like this falling away because often there's a lot of big things that fall away when you go through a life upgrade.
And these little things too can add U, they just can't come with you anyway.
15:44
So there's that.
But then I was also like I said, I don't want to put in the effort to find something else.
But cool that little things like this are not coming with me.
It's just little signs like this that you're like, oh, fun, OK, let's go.
OI find out.
16:01
Yeah, I find out they're not selling it.
And I'm like looking at, there's another Shoppers Drug Mart, it said they had five.
And I'm like, OK, I'll go there in the morning.
So this morning I go to Shoppers after deciding I'm like, if I can get them, thank you because I won't have to look for a door because I really don't.
16:22
I want to put the energy and effort into helping people.
I don't want to put energy and effort into finding a different face cream that also isn't going to break the bank.
Because like, I don't want to go to Sephora and spend all this money on face stuff.
I just want something, you know, like $40.00 for a face cream that lasts me a couple months is fine.
16:43
But like even that just like right now a little much anyway, $20 sounded great.
So I'm like I'm going to go to this other shoppers.
Go to this other shoppers.
I found them, but they weren't $20.
16:58
They were $30.00.
So I was like damn it.
Because sometimes the website will be a different price than it is in store.
And I know that about shoppers.
No problem.
So I'm standing there and like I said, I don't have a great money story and I still struggle with it about, you know, spending money and whatnot.
17:19
And I'm standing there and I pick up 3 and I'm looking at them and I'm like, OK, 306090 And I'm like, yeah, that's a lot of money.
And I'm not going to be able to get these again because they're not going to be sold in Canada anywhere.
So I'm holding them and I'm like, OK.
17:34
Hi Aduna, do we get all 5 and she lights up and I'm like bitch, you crazy.
Like I I do not want to spend $120 on five craves weighed $150.00 thirty 6090.
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Anyway, math is not my strong suit.
I don't want to spend this money and I'm like, OK, but she said yes.
And I am on this whole journey of like I'm following my intuition.
My intuition has my back.
She has my best interest.
OK.
And then I'm also trying to believe because I'm starting to see evidence of this too, where like I said, I'm, I'm working on my money story and I'm starting this to see this evidence of like whatever I put out comes back to me.
18:23
And more and more like this happened to me.
I forget last month or something, I had to spend $140 on something and then all of a sudden another $140 went out of my bank And I was like, Oh my gosh.
And I was like, well, universe, it's coming back to me and more.
18:42
And literally that same day, someone handed me $140.
And so it, it literally covered it.
It literally covered it.
I'm like, OK, so I'm starting to see this evidence.
I'm starting to believe it.
So I'm standing there with these five creams in my hand and I'm like, OK, universe, you know, I know you have my back.
18:59
Edina has my back.
Like, let's go.
And I go up to the cash and I see a woman.
I always do self checkout.
I'm a self checkout girly.
And I saw this woman standing at a cash in her tag with her name said cash manager.
And I was like, hi, can I ask you a question?
And she's like, yeah.
19:14
And I was like, there's no like, you don't match the prices on the website.
And she's like, no, sorry, you have to like buy it online if you want the website price.
And I was like, oh, it's out of stock online.
She's like, OK, sorry.
And I was like, that's OK.
Like she was so nice, so nice.
19:31
So then I go to the machine and I'm not even looking at the machine.
I'm just like Ding Ding, Ding.
Like beeping them in, like scanning them into the machine.
I look up, Did they not all fucking scan in at 20 bucks a pop?
Not 30 like the tag said, 20 bucks a pop.
19:49
So five at 20 bucks a pop.
You can do the math.
And then I look over to her and I'm like, Oh my gosh.
They rang in at the online price and she's like, oh, maybe our sticker wasn't there.
And I was like, it doesn't matter.
I cleaned you out like you have nothing left on the shelf.
I took them all.
20:04
And so like she's laughing and I'm laughing, whatever.
And then I remember that I have a credit on my account for points for $30 off.
So I ended up spending after tax like $84 or something for five creams that retail at 40 bucks each, so.
20:23
Thank you Intuition for saying yes please get all of these.
And now I have.
I actually went to another shoppers and cleaned them out too.
There was two more so now I have 7 but like I spent 47, I spent less.
20:41
Like it's just crazy.
And I followed my intuition and she said to do it and now I have like a whole year of face cream because I probably go through it in a cup.
I actually don't know how long it takes me to go through one of these bottles.
But now I have a whole year buffer even though I'm going through this upgrade and then I have a whole year to find something new.
21:02
We all know I'm not going to spend this time looking for that.
But who knows what's going to happen?
Maybe they will come back to the country and sell them again.
I don't know.
Maybe I don't know.
Any number of things could happen.
The point is, my intuition said, yes, I ended up like making bank or not making bank.
21:19
I don't know the expression for this where I, you know, start the car.
Like I saved so much money.
It was amazing and following your intuition and like feeling these things, even though you're going through an upgrade, like I really feel like the universe is like, OK, you can't take this with you.
21:35
But like here you go.
You're saving a fuck ton of money on these creams and you don't have to worry about this right now.
It's kind of like an FYI, this can't come with you.
But like also we've got your back.
Here's something you can take with you.
So did I want to spend all that money today?
21:50
Absolutely not.
But it's going to come back to me and more.
And also now I don't have to worry about it because I have more important things that I want to be doing with my day, with my life, then worrying about finding a new face cream because no thanks, unsubscribe.
22:10
Not a fan of shopping around for new creams.
Like I always find they're like too thick or whatever.
I don't know.
I need something that's going to absorb into my skin.
Why is that so hard to find?
I don't know.
I don't know.
Anyway, that's one of two fun stories.
22:28
The other fun story about my intuition and about things coming back to you and more and life upgrades.
I literally just watched Evil Worse Roda too.
And no spoilers to it, but if you don't want to hear my opinion, please scrub on forward.
22:49
I was a huge Devil Wears Prada fan when the movie first came out and I have definitely Life U.
This is another sign of a life upgrade.
You don't like things the way you used to.
You just don't resonate with them anymore.
Like I was like a ride or die.
23:06
I loved this movie so much.
I've seen this movie, the first one.
I've seen it so many times.
I resonated with Andy's journey with Horrible Bosses so much and I was really excited when the second one came out and it fell so flat for me.
23:25
So flat.
I honestly felt like it was a story nobody needed to hear.
Like I know I'm not the only one.
I looked up other reviews but like I think it also has to do with like I wouldn't even choose to watch the original now because it just doesn't resonate with who I am anymore and I feel like that's another sign of a life upgrade.
23:48
Things don't ring true.
I just watched the trailer for Avengers Doom, just Doomsday.
And I used to be such a huge Marvel fan and it didn't hit for me at all.
This is like a life upgrade thing.
24:05
Like I just don't care about the things I used to care about anymore.
That's another sign that you're going through an upgrade.
You're just not that person anymore.
And I was thinking about that like I had a conversation with a friend and she was, she was making these comments about how, you know, I've changed in my life and whatever.
24:22
And I forget specifically what she said, but I really had been thinking about that.
And I'm like, you know what?
The people in your life, they love you and they're well meaning and they feel comfortable.
Like people feel most comfortable when you stay the way that you always have been.
24:41
And I am not that person.
I'm I've never been that person.
I'm never going to be that person.
I'm always going to be changing ABC always be changing and I'm always going to be growing ABG.
And that's part of who I am.
24:58
And if I'm not who I was and you're noticing that, that is kudos to me.
Like great.
Like I saw this post once where it's like you're the last person to notice change because you see yourself every single day.
25:14
So when when other people start noticing it, people who see you not regularly, but regularly enough, like that is such a compliment.
And so, yeah, she started saying things about how, oh man, I wish I could remember specifically what she said.
25:30
But my point is, when you're going through a life upgrade, people are going to notice that things are changing, that things are shifting.
And that's great.
If people are commenting that you've changed, that is your external sign, your external validation that you are on the right path.
25:48
Like let's go.
Because I know sometimes people notice you changed because they're trying to keep you where you were.
And I truly believe, again, dying on this hill, that if you are connected to your intuition, you are always going to be doing right by yourself 1,000,000% of the time.
26:08
And so because I have such a strong connection with myself and my intuition and my life purpose and my life path, if someone else says something to me about like how I've changed and how, you know, if they have kind of a tone about it, I don't take offence to that.
26:26
I used to take offence to stuff like that.
I used to care what people think.
Fuck that.
No thanks.
Unsubscribe.
Like, what they think is their business.
What I think is my business, what you think is your business.
Like you can't change what someone else thinks or does at the end of the day, and that's great.
26:43
That's their life.
It's not yours.
And if someone is going to tell me with some tone that I've changed, cool, because I know I'm doing right by myself.
That's it.
At the end of the day, that is it.
Anyway, this brings us to the second story.
27:05
Also, I didn't say this.
What do we have to drink?
I have water.
Boring old water.
Let's take a hydration break.
Everyone is like making this joke right now because of the World Cup.
But we do need to hydrate.
We do need to have a drink.
27:20
So what did you bring?
I said to grab a drink at the beginning.
What do you have?
And don't worry, we're still going to be doing our card pull.
But I'm going to share this little story first.
27:38
So following your intuition and life upgrades.
I used to never like going to a thrift store.
I get really I, I'm an empath and I think stuff holds energy and it feels very overwhelming being in the store, especially if I'm shopping for myself because I'm touching a lot of things.
28:00
If I'm there with someone else and I'm not touching things, it's fine because when I touch things, the feelings like amplify for me.
But when I'm shop, yeah, when I'm shopping for myself, it is incredibly overwhelming.
And I used to want to buy myself new clothes, not used clothes.
But now I'm on this whole recycling kick and like upcycling and like, if it's something I can get at thrift store, I would rather do that, especially if my intuition is like, yes, please, let's get this thing because it's one of those things that like things hit the landfill and it's like, why?
28:35
You know, just like old furniture or like, I would rather refinish things than have to buy new things.
And I never used to be like that.
And now I'm like that now.
Like I had some friends talk about going shopping and I'm like, I'm shopping at thrift store because the thrift store near me is huge.
28:51
And I found so much stuff in my size.
I actually stopped because I got overwhelmed and I started feeling sick, but like I could have kept going and I didn't even touch half the women's clothing.
So thrift shopping's amazing.
Plus I love handmedowns from friends.
29:07
So this is like the same thing.
Like, I truly believe you can get good things from good people at a thrift store.
It's not that you're going to have things with like bad omens or bad, whatever.
I've heard people talk about stuff like that.
I don't subscribe to any of that anyway, so I really wanted to go to the thrift store, which is like a new feeling for me, but then also like following my intuition, whatever.
29:31
And I was like, can we please go to the thrift store?
Can we please go to the thrift store?
And so my boyfriend and I went and I was so excited and I was looking for stuff and I knew from shopping for him that we need to go because there's no change rooms.
So you basically wear form fitting clothes and you have to try stuff on over your clothes.
29:51
Fine, I did that and I really wanted to go.
I I don't need clothes, but like I really wanted to go, but like I kind of needed clothes I guess because like my styles changing again, life upgrades sign my styles changing.
30:08
I have this poncho that my mom got me.
I don't over a decade ago, over a decade ago, and I always referred to it as ugly poncho.
I thought it was so awful looking.
I remember saying I remember calling it ugly poncho with my coworker at like my last job and I kept it in my desk because it's one of those it's from.
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I kept it because it's from Lululemon and I don't know, it double s also kind of as like a blanket.
You could wear it like a cardigan, you could wear it like a poncho, you could wear it like a blanket.
It's like this multi-purpose thing and I kept it and now I actually love it.
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It's so crazy.
But like life upgrade, I'm in a full different era of my life.
Like these are the kinds of things, these are such little things.
But like when you when you're going through an upgrade, big things change.
And people can say like, oh, you know, that just happens when you get older.
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Sure, maybe it does.
But like my entire life is changing and shifting and everyone's journey is different and maybe it's linear and maybe it's not.
I'm exhausted all the time.
That's another sign, you know, and like I said, it's different for everyone.
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And like last time I went through a big life upgrade, I was in a lot of physical pain.
That kind of is what got me.
It sparked my out of body experience.
It was all the physical pain and all of the practitioners I went to see to try and help.
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Like I had all this back pain and I was like 38 years old, like and it doesn't really line up.
Like I don't know, I was just having all this paint.
So like last time I had a lot of pain.
This time I'm feeling really tired and I'm seeing a lot of things change.
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Like I'm shopping at the thrift store now and like I'm not interested in the movies I was interested in before and like I just don't care.
And like I'm just doing different things with my life.
And like this is part of the upgrade I really feel.
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And it it ebbs and flows.
Like I've been ebbing and flowing through this for years because my out of body experience was in 2023 and it's 2026 and I don't believe like when I first read about Rebecca Campbell's awakening, like Shakti rising I think she called it.
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And like it kind of sounded, I can't remember what she said specifically in the book, but when I read about it, it kind of sounded like a few months of going through these changes.
And like for me, it's been a few years.
Even divorce, you know, like all of it, like the universe will make these changes happen when you're going through these big upgrades, like these big things and little things, little, little things like taste in movies and big things like, you know, divorce and moving, like it's all part of it.
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And you know, part of what I went through too, and I haven't been shy about talking about on the show is like mental health struggles and being super depressed and like trigger, trigger warning alert for anyone who's sensitive.
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I even had, you know, suicidal thoughts and like that's, you know, maybe you go through that too.
It's, it's all part of what I consider to be part of my, my life upgrade in little science that you can, you know, see, like in order to I, I believe the universe has all of these polarizing things like happiness and sadness and like, you know, depression and elation.
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Like you, you, you get so happy and excited about things.
Like the full spectrum of emotions exist and you can't have one without the other because it's like summer and winter.
Like you wouldn't appreciate the summer as much.
The people who live in summer all the time, they don't say they love summer probably, I don't know, because they get it all the time.
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Like I love winter and I think I appreciate winter so much because I feel so hot in the summertime and I love feeling cold.
So I feel like you need to feel those things to appreciate the other things.
And if we stop pushing those things away and we start feeling like I, I feel them less intensely when I just allow them to be and I'm not trying to control them.
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So that's another way that I'm dealing with them.
But I've been ebbing through this journey, like I said, for years.
And anyway, that's just some of the things I have more to say.
But let me get back to my story about the thrift store.
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I'm going to have another drink.
Here, have a drink with me.
Hydration is the best.
Alright, so I really wanted to go to the thrift store.
I'm trying stuff on literally in the aisle because that's what you got to do, and I found a T-shirt.
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I don't need T-shirts, but I was looking at T-shirts.
I found a T-shirt that said Gucci, and of course my first thought is it's probably a knockoff, but I was looking at the tag.
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It looked real fancy, it said made in Italy.
I'm like, OK, I'm looking at the the other tag that's on the inside at the bottom.
It's like real long.
It's in a bunch of languages and I'm like, OK, what are the odds this is an actual Gucci shirt?
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So I take pictures and upload them to trusty robot ChatGPT.
I'm like yo take a picture of the shirt.
It's like a boring old like cream coloured shirt with black Gucci with the G's and I'm like hey found this at the thrift store, what are the odds?
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How do I know if this is actually a real Gucci?
So he's a robot.
He can't definitively say yes, but he's like, this is leaning towards yes, and here's why.
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It was like the way the tag was at the back.
It's got this like rippling to it, almost like a man.
I can't think of the word.
Anyway, it's got this rippling to it.
It has a black border and red stitching.
And I'm like, OK.
And then he goes look for this model number on the big long tag on the inside.
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And I was like, oh, you mean this one?
And I snapped another picture and sent that back into him because that number was exactly inside the tag.
And I'm like, OK.
And he's like, yeah, You know, short of having someone definitively authenticated this, this is either one of those really good dupes that you can't tell the different, or it's an actual authentic Gucci T-shirt.
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And I'm like, well, when did it come out?
2018 Fall Winter Line, OK.
And Value Village was selling it for 1299 Plus we had this like coupon where you could spend $40, you get $15 off.
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So I ended up spending $8.49 for a T-shirt that was retailing in Canada back then for around $800.
So This is why you follow your intuition, folks, because there's no.
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I did get some other things and they're adorable, of course, and I'm really excited about them and I've worn one of them so far because it's only been a couple days.
And I love it, Love it, love it, love it, love it.
And found a cute outfit, a couple cute combos with stuff I already have.
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It's amazing, easy and amazing.
Love love love, but I haven't decided.
I might try and sell it because how awesome is that, that you spend $8, you spend 1% of retail value and maybe I'm able to sell it for 100 bucks, you know, like that would be amazing.
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I would love that 1,000,000%.
Like how cool is it to be able to flip something like that?
And it's all because you're following your intuition.
Because I know the universe has my back and who am I to say how money is supposed to come in?
Who am I to say how things are supposed to go?
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And like I said, when you're going through a life upgrade, you do things differently.
And that is such a sign.
Doing things differently and being open to the changes in life, the possibilities in life, that's how you're going to be able to upgrade.
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So all things are going to start falling away, like the moisturizer and buying new clothes from the store, you know, And another thing like I said about the money and stuff, like I'm feeling a lot of pressure lately.
And in addition to like, I'm so tired all the time.
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Like I'm going through this whole like week of being exhausted.
Um, but then also like I'm feeling all this pressure and you know, people will say pressure makes diamonds, which is awesome.
I've said that too.
And I love that analogy, but also I feel like, like I said, pressure doesn't have to be seen as a bad thing.
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Like I think we feel pressure right before a big breakthrough.
Like if you think about plants, you plant seeds and they're growing beneath the surface.
You don't see what's happening because it's beneath the surface, but there's probably some pressure when that seed starts growing and it's about to breakthrough the soil.
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Like you put that seed in and you bury it in the dark.
You know, like I said, how I went through this, like these dark thoughts and this dark soul.
And like I keep going through this, these different phases of this upgrade.
And like these seeds are in the dark, and like before they can see the light, there's this.
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Pressure and they've got to breakthrough the soil, these little seedlings that have not too much strength, well enough strength to break through the soil.
But like you pack that in and they got to breakthrough and they do it because that's nature and that's how it works.
But like, I think as humans, we feel this pressure too, right before we have a big, big breakthrough.
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And I also had a big breakthrough last week, which is why I think I'm feeling exhausted and why I think I'm feeling pressure because I don't think it happens linear the way it does with plants, You know, I don't think the plants, you know, I don't think it's the same for us where it's like, OK, I feel the pressure and then, oh, finally I get to see the sun.
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But then think about how that'll feel so different to them because they were buried in the dirt and now they're in the light with oxygen.
It's like a baby.
It's like they're in this little belt, like this cocoon in the belly and then all of a sudden they're in Earth and they have to use their lungs and they haven't had to do this before and like it's it's new and it feels uncomfortable.
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Like that's what happens when you are going through this upgrade.
Things are new and they're uncomfortable and you're always learning new things about yourself because you're continuously going through this cycle of learning new things about yourself and growing and upgrading.
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And you're like, well, what do I feel?
How do I feel about this now?
Like, how has this changed for me?
So those are all things, like, those are all things that I've noticed.
Like, again, they're probably different for everyone, but like I said, I'm tired all the time now.
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And like last time I went through a big one, I had lots of pain.
And like, it's not linear because I'm ebbing and flowing and like, old things start falling away and things you thought you knew start changing and like be open to those shifts and like feeling all this pressure and like clarity is going to come and evolve as you peel through all these layers.
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And that's something that I've noticed as I've been going through this too, was like what I thought I had clarity on.
Like I had this out of body experience three years ago.
And I thought I had the ultimate clarity because in that moment I thought I was supposed, like I thought I was being told to study sound healing.
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And I did.
And it came so easy to me and I'm really good at it.
But as I went through that journey, I found the most like as you go through every time you're like, I found the ultimate clarity, but then there's always more clarity, which is so cool because you're just peeling back all these layers.
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Because like, I feel like I needed that sound healing and all that experience to get the permission that I thought I needed to be able to do the thing that I actually want to be doing.
And also like, I never would have thought before I had that out of body experience that I felt qualified to even help other people with their life purpose.
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But now I know that that's what I'm meant to be doing.
I'm meant to be helping you with your intuition, helping you find your life purpose.
And sound healing is just a support tool for that.
I had everything backwards.
I thought I was fitting all these things into sound healing.
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That's why I thought it's like, you know, sound healing with A twist.
No, no, no, no, no.
Sound healing is just one of the tools in my toolbox now.
I have all this ultimate clarity.
And so part of going through this evolution of your life upgrade is finding new layers of clarity, new levels of understanding.
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And so you have to be completely open to the evolution as it goes so that you can step into the shoes that you knew that you wanted all along because you've known all along what you're meant to be doing that has been in your heart this whole time.
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Your future self is sending that message to you.
You have these dreams in your heart because your future self already did them.
And so it's more like a memory than a dream.
And and you've already achieved them.
But you have free will.
You have the choice.
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You can choose to follow it, or you can choose to keep waiting, and you can choose to live the life that you're living.
Pardon me, let's take another drink.
My throat feels dry.
But you always have that choice.
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You can go either way.
And that's what I was doing.
I was living what I thought I was supposed to for however long.
And you can do it until you can't anymore.
You'll feel this tension of like, I can't keep going this way anymore.
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And then you feel like you have to make a change.
That's people call it a midlife crisis.
It's it's a crisis because your soul is like, this isn't why I came here.
I'm so misaligned with what I'm supposed to be doing.
I've followed what other people have said to do.
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I am not feeling my full expression.
And The thing is, people get misguided when they go through this kind of midlife thing when they are still living in their brain.
The way you can go through this midlife upgrade, let's call it that, instead of a crisis, it's an upgrade.
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Going through a midlife upgrade and you're following your intuition.
That is where all these doors open.
That's where you feel all these ebbs and flows and tiredness and pain and all this stuff that I'm feeling and Rebecca Campbell's feeling and anybody else who's talked about this, she's literally the only example that's coming to mind right now.
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But I know there's so many other people out there who've talked about this.
So whatever they feel, whatever you feel, whatever I feel like you have to be open to all these shifts and ebbs and flows and, and new levels of clarity.
And the, the more levels of clarity that I've had, the more I've allowed myself to shift.
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Because like, if you've been around here, you know, I've changed the title of this podcast like 5 times because every single time I get clearer and clearer and clearer and clearer.
And it is so awesome the amount of clarity I have right now.
It just feels right.
It doesn't feel exciting.
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Like Bashar always says to follow your highest excitement.
And I've always tried to chase the things that feel exciting, but this doesn't even feel exciting.
This feels right.
It just feels like a knowing and like that's the level that you're looking for when you're going through this upgrade.
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Like what just feels right, even if it doesn't make any logical sense.
Like when I stood there with those five moisturizers in my hand, I was like, this doesn't make logical.
The price tag says $30.00.
I don't have any money.
Like, you know, you're not supposed to be going around saying those things, but it's a fact.
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It is what it is.
So like you're standing there and you're like, this makes no logical sense, but like you're going to do it.
You know, you're following your intuition, you're going to do it, but it just felt right.
And so you do it and then everything works out for you in the end.
Like I listen to this guy Abel Heart.
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He has music for like life upgrading and like affirmations and manifestations and law of attraction and all those things.
And he has this one song called I Believe it.
And it's one of my favorites.
And the lyrics literally say it's all working out for me.
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And so listen to these songs on repeat because like then eventually you start believing them.
Like you're literally brainwashing yourself into believing what's possible for you.
And like, that shit fucking works.
Like I have this audio that I listen to every day and like the other day I did a new moon practice and I got a message from my future self.
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And like now I have a new audio that I'm listening to every day because like it's constantly growing and evolving.
And that's another sign that you're, you know, growing and evolving.
Like on this life upgrade is when you're growing and evolving and like maybe we're always life upgrading, you know, if we're always growing and evolving.
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But like how many times can I say growing and evolving in 5 minutes just getting anyway?
The clarity that comes as you peel back the layers is what gets you closer and closer to your life purpose is how you know.
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One of the biggest signs for me is these new levels of clarity and you, they don't come from thinking.
They don't come from your head.
They come from all the times where like I think I'm doing things aligned with my soul and my purpose and then the universe is not giving me this return and I'm like, what the fucking hell?
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Like I'm doing what is supposed to be my life purpose, what I think I'm so clear on, and I'm not getting these, you know, yields.
Like how am I able to support myself?
For example, like where are all the clients?
I'm like, hello.
Like speaking out into the ether, like hello.
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And then I get this new level of clarity and I'm like, oh, that's why.
Because if it had given me everything I thought I was supposed to get by living in my purpose, I never would have got to this next level.
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You need these struggles and trials and you need things to not work out, and you need to keep going to get to that next level of clarity so that you can get to the actual thing.
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And like for me, this actual thing now is helping people with their intuition and helping people with their life purpose and mentoring people to get there because I was there.
And like this is what life is all about.
Is living the reason your soul came here this lifetime to fully express that and live that?
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And you can do that.
And I'm doing that.
And the more you go along this journey, the clearer and clearer it gets.
And it's not a quick thing.
Like when I first read her book, like, I honestly thought it was like a few months or like a year or whatever.
Like I've already been on this journey.
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There was a few years before my spiritual awakening where I felt like my out of body experience, where I thought I was like, I'm going to go after my dreams.
And there was like 2 years there where I started doing some of the legwork before and I started having that physical pain.
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And then I had the out of body experience.
And then I'm doing sound healing.
And then I'm going through divorce and then I'm really depressed.
And then, you know, I'm trying to do my sound healing and then it's not working because like nobody's coming to my stuff.
Well, some people were coming, but like, not a lot of people are coming.
I'm like still in the negative, like, you know, you're, you're spending, it's not all coming back, blah, blah, blah.
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And then I get this extra level of clarity, like it's been like five years and like you're just, it's always going to be growing and changing and evolving.
And like, maybe if you have a bigger purpose, it's going to take time to get there because I was so misaligned.
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I was so in the matrix.
Like I was not living with my soul.
I was not living with my purpose.
So there are a lot of layers to peel back on.
And I think we might explode.
Not literally.
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Well, like if all of this stuff changed at once, I don't think our system could really handle it because we're in this, you know, 3D human experience.
It takes time to get through these layers.
So like I said, for me, I've been on this for five years, this hamster wheel of it's not a hamster wheel because everything keeps changing.
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But like, you know, I've been, I've been doing this for five years.
And so that's another thing to like, look for.
It's like, you know, maybe it'll be similar to me, maybe it won't.
But it's taken a lot of time and I'm not going to stop.
If things keep changing, that's fine, that's totally cool.
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I'm totally OK with that.
So I love this evolution.
Stay tuned, hit follow, subscribe, whatever the button says and you'll hear all about it.
And you know, if you're into this topic, I would love to help you guide you through it more.
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And you know, whether that's through the podcast or working together, like I am so grateful for you.
I'm so grateful that you're here and you know, let's do the damn thing because I truly believe that's why we're here.
So let's get a message of inspiration before we end this episode.
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So we're using the Universe as Your back Deck by Gabrielle Bernstein.
It's Oracle cards.
What does the Collective need to know today?
I am a spirit having a human experience, and I'm here to get closer to love.
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I mean, isn't that kind of what we already talked about, you know, love, you know, with the course in miracles, if anyone studied that it, it literally says only love is real.
And I truly believe that connecting with ourself is love.
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It's a loving act.
And connecting with our purpose is love.
I feel like everyone's purpose has something to do with love.
You know, mine would be to guide women to their life purpose because we need someone out there to help us to get to connect with that because we've had so many people in our lives connect to disconnect us from it.
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So then let's have someone guide us back to it.
You know, like anyway, I am a spirit having a human experience and I'm here to get closer to love.
It's true.
You are a spirit.
That's why your soul knows what you're here to do this lifetime.
That's why we're stripping the layers and getting to it.
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So anyway, we're not going to do a sound meditation this episode.
They're going to evolve in future episodes.
They're going to be more of a connection to yourself, connection to your soul, connection to spirit rather than just like straight up sound healing because that's more my purpose, to connect you with your purpose.
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And so that's going to evolve.
And we're already at, you know, time, so I'm not going to attack it on at the end, but stay tuned for those in future episodes.
And yeah, check the show notes if you want to do any one-on-one work with me.
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Let me mentor you to listen to your intuition more or listen to your life purpose.
Connect with that, you can e-mail me [email protected].
Let's go.
Let's do this, let's do the damn thing.
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Anyway, thank you so much for being here.
All your dreams are possible and I will see you in the next one.
Bye.
